You and Yourself

Some three weeks ago things did not seem to work so well. This is to say it lightly. A more realistic statement would be that things were crashing. I know the principles of WholeSelf for a few years now and had some good sessions that often lead me far into the past, but this time it was different – I asked my friend and practitioner for a session, not because it was cool or interesting, but because this time I needed some help.

That must have been one heck of a session because I can’t make me remember what we did. It is always a good sign if something is so completely gone that it is totally erased from the memory bank. But what I do remember is the fact that the very next day I got a phone call from the person tightly connected with the trouble I had gotten myself into and had news that were promising.

I performed the tasks I had been asked by this person in order to possibly remedy the situation and went on vacation. Vacation is always a time to relax and think too much. I guess what I did during these few days of vacation and the following week is destroy the sprout of new options by thinking and thinking and thinking about it.

So this little delicate plant was brutally destroyd – by thinking too loud and the typical figure, figure,figure.

Then it hit me a few days later like a freight train – there was this immense similarity between my situation right now and the days in the 30s in Germany – the Third Reich!

My understanding of the WholSelf principles allowed me see that if there is something repeating right now then something back then is not handled.

So, yesterday we had another session to do a WholeSelf Bereavement. After talking and evaluating the situation over coffee and deciding on a course of action, we then found a nice shady place in the yards and I was on my way to meet Adolf.

While I know that in the first session there was a lot going on in terms of emotion – from laughter to tears, this session turned out to be rather light, but I made my contact with Adolf and we cleared up anything that might stand between us – all this under the guarding eye of my practitioner who is there to facilitate the process and stop the processee to run in circle and not get anywhere.

When the process was done I came slowly back into present time and took another wondering look around me. I could not put my finger on it but the word was somehow different.

No big turmoil or even storm had happened, and I learned that this is certainly not required, maybe even detrimental because today I got ‘non-refundable’ money back from the one point of trouble and I got a call from the person that I had tried to get hold of to get an update on what’s going on.

Bleakness has receded – now I only have to manage to turn down the volume of my thinking so that I don’t destroy this new shoot that is now germinating – again.